So I quit my job two weeks ago.
My new job starts on Monday.
While it has been a nice break, some other major life changes are in the works that I am super excited about as well so I have been a bit anxious but in a good way.
More like an anticipation.
All of this has given me time to think, have fun, be lazy, be active, see family, reflect, and make time for people like I have been meaning to, something that is super important to me.
I do however have a bit of an embarrassing story to share that mostly fits into the lazy category.
(I shared this with a friend yesterday and based on his reaction I must WARN you, BEWARE THE CRINGE!)
About a week ago I was early into my break and just did not want to get out of bed.
It was probably about 11am, and I cannot say I am proud of this, but, I lifted my head just slightly and saw a book on my shelf titled “Houstonian”.
I considered the energy it would take to get up to find out what was inside and I decided against it.
So what did I do?
I did probably one of the saddest things I have ever done.
I took out my phone and attempted to google what this book was.
Immediately I put my phone down and thought to myself, “Self, How often do people learn about life, people, and art but not experience it?”
(Google failed me and I still do not know what Houstonian is. If you find out please let me know.)
We see pictures of mountains and scenery.
We read magazines, internet stories and use facebook to find out about the lives of celebrities and even sometimes our family and friends.
We will never know these things truly unless we are willing to get up and experience them.
What do you call someone who wants to know everything about someone but does not actually know them personally?
They might read about them, watch what they do, have pictures of them on their wall.
What do you call someone like that?
The Greek word for “to know” that is used in the Bible does not just mean to know about someone or something.
It has an element of experience to it.
An intimate experiential knowledge of that thing mountain, person, or place.
CS Lewis in his book “A Grief Observed” talks about his tragic loss of his wife.
He talks about how he has pictures of her, how he can have imaginary conversations with her in his head and how he can imagine how she would be, but it does not even hold a candle to how amazing she really was.
To experience her in her fullest and not as a shadow or a memory was to truly know her.
Regrettably we can even do what CS Lewis was speaking of with Jesus.
We can have pictures and icons, imagine how He looks, smells, what He would say or do, but to truly experience Him is to know Him.
To know real life.
To know real joy.
To know real peace that is so great in the midst of circumstances that it baffles people.
I met a girl in the hospital today who knows God.
There was a peace that she encountered tonight that did not even make sense but it opened her up to dreaming again.
She talks with Him and He talks back.
She has dreams and when she dreams she is dreaming with Him.
He likes to do things with her and likes to do what she likes to do.
Like a good dad.
The kind of life Jesus died for you to have,
it looks like something.
It is like that time you ran downhill through that field with the wind in your hair with people you loved and laughed and smiled bigger than you ever have before, maybe not even knowing fully why.
That moment in a monotonous day where you find true enjoyment in your work, with the people around you and that feeling pops up.
When you are in a hospital alone maybe feeling rejected and you are met with kindness for the first time in you don’t know how long.
It’s kind of like that.
It will change you.
Jesus wants to enjoy those moments with you.
The God who made a good world participates in it and wants to participate in it with you.
Wants you to know that real life, that real joy and that peace that does not make sense.
Even if you have your own plans, I promise with Him they are always better.
This is the God that always trades up and He wants to work in the world with you.
It is the greatest adventure I have ever been on.
I promise no matter what you go through He will never leave you, in fact He will get closer to you in and through it.
Invite Him into your dreams.
Come and participate with Him and a love that never fails.
Know intimately the life He died for you to be able to freely experience with the one who made it possible.
As you can see from the photo above I did eventually get out of my bed and walked frozen lakes, ran around mountains and felt alive with the ones I love.
Thanks dad I love you.